The Diary of Pandora Boxx

Carol Channing Rambles! (From my TV SHOW)

2006-07-28T17:04:01Z

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GAY means happy SHOW!

2006-06-23T00:29:59Z

sign this petition

2006-06-01T00:37:15Z

You may not know exactly how your food is prepared for you before you quickly order it and scarf it down, but sign this petition to stop the unnecessary cruelty inflicted on defenseless animals:

PETITION TO KFC

I forgot I had a live journal...

2006-05-31T19:26:56Z

I haven't blogged anything in so long, I forgot that I had one! Also sometimes I read other people's like Lady Bunny's and they are so funny that I'm just like, "oh lord, mine will be stoopid with two o's." But anyhow, I'm here writing just in case anyone still reads this or even goes to my website (probably not). So here's the quick rundown on some of the things happening in my life:

1) My new TV show is currently playing on Rochester's public access station (channel 15) called: "GAY means happy SHOW!". You can catch it if you live in the city of Rochester every Tuesday at 9:30pm and every Friday at 10:30pm. It's a skit comedy show like a modern day "Laugh In."

2) I graduated Summa Cum Laude from St. John Fisher College with a BA in Communications/Journalism with an English/Writing minor.

3) Two articles about the TV show are about to come out, one in ABOUT magazine (www.aboutmag.com), which is out now and one for The Insider (June 15th).

4) My non-fiction writing won and award for my college's literary magazine (The Angle)

5) Wednesday night, DRAG CAMP, is still going strong and is still pulling in well over 100 people consistantly

6) The last few weeks, I've been a tad lazy because I crashed after school and everything wrapped up.

7) I've been seeing a guy, it seems to be going well. That's all I'm saying for now because I don't want to jinx it at all ;-)

I think that's the low-down for now. That's been my life in a nutshell for the past few months. Holla!

more CHURCH!

2006-03-13T20:35:49Z

CHURCH!

2006-03-13T20:34:49Z

pandoraboxx @ 2006-03-10T13:33:00

2006-03-10T18:36:46Z

Empty Closet Article

yay! ok so now I have to really make sure it's good and actually get finished! ha ha!

It's like saying that Global warming is caused by the Pirates of the Caribbean

2006-02-22T02:01:31Z

Rev. Fred Phelps has been protesting at military funerals becuase he believes American deaths in Iraq are divine punishment for a country that he says harbors homosexuals.

Shirley Phelps-Roper, a daughter of Fred Phelps and an attorney for the Topeka, Kansas-based church, said neither state laws nor the Patriot Guard can silence their message that God killed the soldiers because they fought for a country that embraces homosexuals.

"The scriptures are crystal clear that when God sets out to punish a nation, it is with the sword. An IED is just a broken-up sword," Phelps-Roper said. "Since that is his weapon of choice, our forum of choice has got to be a dead soldier's funeral."

All I have to say is holy shit. That's right HOLY shit. Pun intended. What the hell? Does this make any sense whatsoever? Piss on you Shirley Phelps-Roper and Rev. Fred Phelps. How dare you invade people's funerals, it's a fucking funeral! I love when people claim to speak in God's name or better yet Jesus' name. Who the hell would want these nutcases speaking for them? Certainly not God nor Jesus.

Oh thank you wise Rev. Fred Phelps of the wonderous site godhatesfags.com. I'm sure God does love people that spread hatred, and fat old white hetereo men the best. And to prove that ignorance breeds ignorance you know have your daughter preaching hatred as well. One thing is for sure, if there is a hell, you are both going to be preaching the gospel in it.

Soldiers are being killed in Iraq because of Gays in America? Again I say: HOLY SHIT. This has to be the most ridiculously stupid things I've ever heard, well except for the time someone told me to lick a Colorado River Toad for a fantastic trip (PS it didn't work).

Read the whole article here.

GO BIKERS!!! Hootie Hoo!

love stinks, yeah yeah

2006-02-15T08:02:31Z

You love her
But she loves him
And he loves somebody else
Ya just can't win
And so it goes
Till the day you die
This thing they call love
It's gonna make you cry
I've had the blues
The reds and the pinks
One thing's for sure

Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah

Two by two and side by side
Love's gonna find you yes it is
Ya just can't hide
You'll hear it call
Your heart will fall
Then love will fly
It's gone that's all
I don't care what any Casanova thinks
All I can say is
Love stinks

Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah

I've been through diamonds
I've been through minks
I've been through it all
Love stinks

Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah
Love stinks
Love stinks yeah yeah

Love stinks

You learn.....

2006-02-05T23:23:48Z

"You Learn"

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

like an echo peddle you're repeating yourself...

2006-01-30T10:42:41Z

Why is it that I can find the one guy who will end up shitting on me, out of everyone?

So... I'm going to host a show in Buffalo. My friends come with me plus one guy that I like, who knows I like him. We all get along great. Early on I was afraid of what might happen... just because I was. He knew I liked him but we aren't officially "dating." So I was afraid of the worst, like he'd end up hooking up with someone. Of course did I expect it to happen right in front of my face? Nope. Not only did he decided to be flirting with a guy WHILE I was performing... he proceeded to go into the bathroom with him, THEN from about 10 feet away, they went up to the bar, the guy sat on his lap and THEN they made out. RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! I would love to say I was surprised but quite honestly I was not. Surprisingly I was very calm when I walked over and was like... ummm... what the fuck is going on? I said, I know you obviously don't care but you really hurt me. Then the dumbass boy he was making out with tried to introduce himself to me, to which I said: um how about you go fuck yourself. They boy left the bar a few minutes later. But seriously. You go to a bar out of town with someone you KNOW likes you and you SAY you like them, only to be so blatantly... I want to say RUDE but that is an understatement... but its like oh my god, come on? What the fuck. I just don't get people. This has to be one of the most offensive, rude and tasteless things that has ever happened to me and that's saying a lot.

All I can say is what I said before... go fuck yourself.

and one more thing...

2006-01-20T22:19:43Z

P.S. Okay the thing about journal writing is that sometimes you go back and read what you wrote and think, what the hell was I thinking? ha ha ha

Take everything I say on here with a grain of salt, sometimes this ends up being were I just rant. I try not to let anything get to me anymore, it's a waste of time. I'd rather just be happy and fuck anyone else who thinks otherwise.

wednesdays

2006-01-20T22:12:06Z

Wednesdays are a blast! I'm still amzed at the great crowds we've been having (hopefully I don't jinx myself by saying this!) If you haven't been out to see some of the crazy shit go down, check out my myspace page:

PANDORA BOXX ROCKS!

School's back in session, but it's a lot less stressful than it was last semester. Although, once my TV show goes into full swing it will get a little hectic. Yes that's right :) As an independent study I am producing my own half-hour variety/comedy show! Hopefully it will eventually air on public access television here in Rochester. I'll have more details as the project goes on. I'm really excited!

I have lots of things I'm excited about right now!

So that's about it, not that I think anyone even reads this anymore... I even forget I have a website. ha ha ha...

Brokeback 2

2006-01-07T15:25:04Z

Very rarely do I leave a theatre and am completely speechless. This was the case last night when I saw "Brokeback Mountain." I wasn't sure what to expect because I had heard so many things and usually I don't like gay movies. I just knew that if someone died of AIDS in this movie I was going to walk out, because does that have to be in every gay movie? Thankfully that desn't happen but what did happen was just this beautiful and sad tale. It was sad but it was a good sad, mostly. It is an honest, true love story. I know I have never seen a gay movie like this and I hope that it opens up the floodgates to more like this. I had to hold back the tears in the theatre. I just kept telling myself, get to the car, get to the car, you can cry in the car. And of course I did but held back because I didn't want to have a mental breakdown in the parking lot of Regal Henrietta.

I think part of what hit so hard is the parallels I saw in my own life and emotions that I thought I held let go of but realized are still there. I have just covered over them and put up a bitter exterior but I realized last night that I need to get rid of that. I have to come to terms with fallin gin love with guys that were not emotionally on the same page or could even admit or come to terms with their own sexuality. I think instead of letting go I buried these feelings. I do know now that it is better to have loved than not at all. I want to again but I have been so closed off to the possibility that it could never happen.

I know it was just a movie but honestly it was done so well, it could be a true story. I didn't see the actors as themselves but as the characters and when you do that you know it's done well. The only thing that would have made it better would have been to have openly gay actors play the parts, although for this story I think having supposed straight actors is an advantage. The again, it is acting so it shouldn't matter as long as they play the parts well and they did amazing. I only hope everyone could or would see this movie, it simply showed that these two people who happen to be guys loved each other, in a world where they couldn't. It showed that you can't chose who you fall in love with, you just fall.

I yearn to fall again...

Brokeback

2006-01-07T08:36:57Z

Brokeback Mountain...

amazing.

that's all I can say for now.

going to cry myself to sleep now.

here comes 2006!

2005-12-31T22:50:03Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Jesus the Musical

2005-12-28T20:26:54Z

Jesus the Musical!

fake breasts & turkey legs

2005-11-20T08:42:05Z

Lonely

2005-11-20T05:15:37Z

Lonely Girl (or Boy)

I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?

Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to try

I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come true

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?

By Pink

I am a Jerk.

2005-11-17T07:54:53Z

So for the second time in a month I have felt like a total asshole. I feel like I am a totally bad friend.

A month ago one of my best friends, Louis, had his 25th birthday and he felt that no one really did anything special for it nor made a big deal (for the third year in a row). Me being one of his closest friends should have been the one to do something... and I was but... of course me having poor ass, well horrible time management, didn't plan anything enough in advance and when I went to try and throw a surprise get together he had to work. SO I figured well, I'll just put it off for a week and throw something better together. Of course one week leads to two and whatever, I'm an ass. So for a month now he won't speak to me and wants nothing to do with me or anyone else because he's over it. Also that other people HAVE had dinners for them or parties or outings... so he has every right to be a tad mad. I just feel horrible because I feel like maybe I am so self-absorbed I neglected to realize HOW important something was to a true friend (who now I feel like I have lost). I have tried to apologize but I guess some things you can't ever take back.

To make matters worse, my friend Andrea comes to almost EVERY show I do (all the way from Buffalo) and she asks me to do a Madonna mix tonight for the Madonna CD Release thing (and of course for her birthday, a fact that slipped my mind because again I'm an ass). When I was getting stuff together I was like ohhh I don't feel like doing a whole mix, she'll understand, oh whatever. Of course she's in tears because it meant a lot to her. Again I'm an ass. I guess I was so wrapped up in all my own shit in my life, I didn't take the time to realize HOW important something was to someone, AND especially someone who supports me all the time. Again and again I'm an ass.

I just figured maybe if I announced my asshole-ism on something that is seen by a few people through my website it might mean something to people that I care about, I hope. I just feel like maybe I am a horrible friend. Which is the saddest thing to me in the world.

I'm going to eat pizza and be sad now.... because it was never my intention to hurt any of my friends and apparently I have...

All I can say, in all complete honesty, is that I am truly and utterly sorry.

MADONNA CD Release Party TONIGHT!!!

2005-11-16T17:03:19Z

Holy Shit this Bitch is Crazy.

2005-11-16T04:01:03Z

Crazy Ass Religious Bitch

I met Kathy Griffin!!!!

2005-11-13T00:26:21Z

Mike, Kathy Griffin, Me (and her husband Matt in the backround)

HOLLA!

I met KATHY GRIFFIN!

2005-11-12T08:31:22Z

I met KATHY GRIFFIN!!!!!!!

Holla!!!

More to come later!!!!

Kathy Griffin Rocks The Hizzouse!

2005-11-08T17:47:34Z

Kathy Griffin is coming to Syracuse University, this Friday!! I can't wait! Woo-hoo!

I just feel like she needs to be my friend, ha ha! She totally Rocks!